All the children are sleeping!! I have so much energy right now it's awful I should really try to go to bed.

Hannah slept pretty well last night, she only got up twice. Well by twice I mean we went to bed around 1AM she got up at 4, then again at 7 after that I just got up and took her downstairs. She took another bit of a nap and as of 9AM she was nursing every hour on the hour until about 5, when she took another 2 hour nap. Nursed at 7, again at 8, 9, 10:30, 11:30, and decided she had to be held, up on my shoulder so she could look around, until about 20 minutes ago.

I'm expecting her to be up in about 45 minutes or so since I'm not letting her sleep in bed with me. I just can not get any sleep if she in bed with me I'm way too paranoid, on top of that she really likes to mush her nose into everything including pillow/blankets/my face so she has to sleep in her cot. Sorry Hannah. It's right beside the bed, actually pushed right up beside my side of it so it's not like she can't hear my breathing/see me when she opens up one eye and makes sure someone is still around, she also gets the boob on demand, it's a nice life!

She's almost grown out of her 0-3month clothes! I need to see how many 3-6 month stuff I have a make a trip to the store. The older kids need snow boots and snow pants, btw, it's snowing right now and about 15 degrees with 40MPH wind gusts. We're supposed to get an inch tomorrow during the day and then on Friday it's supposed to be 54 degrees. What the hell man.

I printed off a list of crap Tony can't eat and it's posted on the fridge. Good for checking the labels of canned goods and mixes. There's a lot here that he can't eat.

Tonight we're having ham, real string beans from our garden, and potatoes. It's sort of like a soup/stew type thing. Tomorrow I'm making a giant pot of this soup.

I also found a recipe for flour-less peanut butter cookies from none other than Paula Deen so I might make those tomorrow too, unless I'm too tired, which may be the case.

I slept until 11:30 today and honestly, I could go back to bed.

Last night we had roast chicken, rice, roast peaches, and corn. I also made rice pudding with soy milk (because soy milk is okay for him, at least this brand I have is) for dessert since Amelia ate most of the peaches.

Also I finally packed up my swap packages and they will be going out tomorrow!

I'm heading out to take the kids to story time then to the grocery store. Thankfully my mom is coming with us so I can take my time reading the backs of things (you know he can't have bullion cubes, taco mix, or a bunch of types of canned things as well). I'm going to be doing a lot of cooking from scratch until we figure this all out, which is a blessing and a curse. I love to cook but I don't have the energy for it right now.

from Elizabeth Gilbert: "When you sense a faint potentiality for happiness after such dark times you must grab onto the ankles of that happiness and not let go until it drags you face-first out of the dirt. This is not selfishness, but obligation. You were given life; it is your duty and also your entitlement as a human being to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight."

I went a little nuts for dinner, instead of having Tony grill, I decided to make everything I was craving.

- beer butt chicken
- roasted onions
- baked asparagus with balsamic butter sauce
- german potato salad w/ kielbalsa
- velveeta shells n' cheese
- corn on the cob
- fresh pineapple

we have a lot of left overs. ha!

After we cleaned up the mess Tony and I took the kids down the lake. When we got back I had a second dinner of german potato salad and some pineapple. Right now I'm drinking my water, more pineapple soon. I love pineapple.

As I was watching the video I was thinking "he looks REALLY young" he's freaking 19!!! Still, the songs' pretty hot, and stuck in my head via Scott Baio commericals!

i finished my blanket last night. I <3 it so damn much!! It covers my entire love seat so it's big enough for me for sure.



It did cost about 35 dollars in yarn to make, which is sort of a lot for me cause i'm super cheap. However I think it probably would have cost more in the store for it so I'm happy, and it's green, i'm really into green right now.

Jim died last night. The funeral is Tuesday apparently. Tony doesn't want to go to the viewing so it looks like we'll be driving down to Hanover and back on Tuesday (6 hours of driving time total).

I have no idea what I'm going to wear.